So, I’m not GMing at the moment, so I’m in that awkward ‘Now what?’ mindset. I’ve got two different Traveller games in the queue – one for Friday with the Verge game using the Mongoose Traveller 2nd edition rules but not the campaign setting, one for the Saturday group using GURPS but in the Traveller universe that’ll be Deepnight Revelation – but neither of them are going to happen for two months or more, so I’m trying to make myself focus on something. Honestly, I kind of need to get myself back into actual writing so …

Rah.

As I stated previously, my mom passed away on Monday and I’m currently here in Florida with the rest of the family in the aftermath of the ‘memorial’ service. My mom had already prepaid for the arrangements – which is a great idea and something I need to look into doing since I’m unmarried without children and, sadly, unlikely to have either – and she intentionally did not want a big ‘dog and pony show’ for a funeral – which is, again, something that we share; when I’m dead, I don’t give a crap what happens to my body since, you know, I’m dead and all. So we’re at Florida sister’s house with her, her husband, her three daughters, the other sister, her husband and their daughter, my mom’s two sisters, and the husband of of those two … and my mom’s boyfriend. Which made me realize that my mother had more game in the dating area than I do … which isn’t depressing at all.

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So, my mom passed away last night. I’ve booked the flight to Florida – ugh. $700 – and will be leaving work early today so I can go home & pack (which, luckily, consists of throwing some stuff in a bag) before heading to the airport. I have an hour plus layover in Atlanta.

A lot of conflicting thoughts and emotions at the moment. I’m not as emotionally wrecked as I expected to be, which makes me wonder once again if there’s something wrong with me. It also served as a reminder that, if I dropped dead right now, there’s no significant other to care. Dealing with my body and all that would probably fall to one of my sisters. My mom apparently pre-arranged all of the funeral stuff so none of her kids have to deal with it … which is honestly something that I need to do since I have no SO or kids.

Huzzah.

What a shitty way to start the week. One of my sisters called me this a.m. – evidently, my mom is in the hospital and may have suffered a stroke. We don’t know yet what the prognosis is yet, but my mom is 74 so … I’m not entirely hopeful.

Huzzah. Back to work after the long drive yesterday. I’ve had worse drives – coming from Florida to Oklahoma was brutal – but it was still basically six hours in a car alone. Blech. This was also the first time I’ve rented a car where I didn’t spring for the SiriusXM, so I had to rely on my CDs (which I had to actually find in my normal car) to cover a pretty large swath of Kansas where I couldn’t find a decent radio station.

So … here I am. Back to the grind. Rah.

Now I need to get working on my Verge game again…

Tomorrow, I get to roll out of bed really early and head up to Misery … er … Missouri, where my baby sister lives. Originally, I was going to drive up there today, but one of my co-workers abruptly needed to be off today because his wife’s family pulled some scheduling shenanigans, so I came in. I was also going to drive my actual car up there but last week, I had to put air in the tires and noted how messed up they are … so I’m renting a car instead. Picking it up after work.

Not really looking forward to the drive, but it’s family. What are you going to do, right?